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[26 May 2007|11:33pm] |
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i greatly dislike people at the moment.
did I say at the moment? I mean for the past month or two.
i just really really want to go home.
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[10 Feb 2007|06:04pm] |
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I.HATE.JEANS.
i buy a pair, and they fit, and three weeks later.....
TOO BIG! (i mean, i guess thats a good thing, but still. GRRR). I don't want to have to buy a new pair a jeans every three weeks. IM POOR!
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[19 Dec 2006|12:16am] |
so mother-fucking tired of people bitching to me about their relationships. I feel your pain, i really do, but i can only handle the same story for so long. the same situations, the same people, the same outcome, the same feelings...just stop talking about it! resolve your issues, be sad, and then.....that's it. i'm all for ranting and venting and what not, but after 3 months, i'm ready to hear about a new dilemma. (although, i guess this is how my friends felt about me in high school).
I have yet to really vent about all my relationship crap. Everyone asks me about it but they don't really ask for an explanation. When i try to offer one, they change the subject, like they were only asking to be nice. Well, if you don't want to know, then don't fucking ask. Geez. It's not that hard of a concept.
I just want all this stupid drama to be OVER.
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[15 Dec 2006|08:58pm] |
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boys=LAME.
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[22 Nov 2006|02:03am] |
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yay for being home. boo for STILL being sick.
...the first 20 minutes i was home, i got yelled at for not cleaning the mess in the living room, even though i havent been living here for three months.
after a few hours, I was told i selfish and constantly looking for ways to boost my ego.
home is fantastic. Kinda over it. Right now, i'd just love to lock my self in my house with my brother and my dad and not hang out with anybody else.
ugh. I havent even been home for a full day and i already feel like I don't belong here anymore.
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[14 Nov 2006|10:28pm] |
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some spanish music that natasha gave me on my ipod |
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I feel very....
Bleh. I kinda don't feel like anything right now.
Although I have discovered that I am able to turn the most complicated and awkward situations into even more complicated and awkward situations.
ughhhhh
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[22 Sep 2006|02:27am] |
i finally feel like myself again.
But its not necessarily a good thing.
I feel at my best when I'm at my worst. Does that make sense?
I re-discovered my own lack of self validation, as I see it, and it was reconfirmed.
Yay for me. At least I'm back and I feel somewhat normal.
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[29 Aug 2006|06:33pm] |
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there rudy.
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[15 Jun 2006|03:33pm] |
one of my roommies moved out. :-( so sad.
EVERYONE IS LEAVING!!!!!!!
i actually think i might shed a few tears when i drive away tomorrow....
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[12 Jun 2006|02:38pm] |
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Billy Joel-For the Longest time |
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[mood|  anxious]
So.Nervous.
Fo finals, that is. But i want to take them and be done with it all. After tuesday my hardest finals are over...then i just have to pack/read for Communications. Then DISNEYLAND on saturday!!!!!!!! Going with my brother and natasha, and kristine might go that day too. yay!
the year went by so fast. yesterday marked a year since graduation. wow.
I'm going to be so sad when it's actually time for me to move out. This year was crazy, but so much fun.
My brother called me from work today. AHHH i cannot wait to go back to work. I am so excited. I hope it will be as fun as it was last summer. Just to be back in the water everyday with everyone, teaching...*sigh. It doesnt get any better.
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[05 Jun 2006|07:37pm] |
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school is almost out. It's crazy. Sunday marks one year since i graduated from ECHS. wow.
I can't shake this feeling of being happy and things actually going my way. It's a strange feeling. Somehow i feel like I dont deserve it.
I miss people...
I hate that my friends are going through things and I'm not there for them. I dont want to see them hurt and cry and be scared. They should know that they can count on me for anything...absolutely anything....
I'm excited to go home, but sad as well. I've had an amazing year here. Insane, but wonderful. But I'm looking forward to work, spending time with my dad and my brother, swimming (if i can), teaching, spending time with my friends and my two favorite girls from work...
But in the end, all i really want is for my mom to be able to see what I'm doing now.
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[29 May 2006|11:01am] |
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how to save a life-the fray |
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ahhhh weekends.
damn comm. maybe i should start on that media paper...
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[11 May 2006|10:20am] |
just as i was about to go to sleep last night, i came to a realization....
for the first time in a really really really long time....
I'm actually Happy.
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[07 May 2006|01:57am] |
home for the weekend. yesss. went to ECHS swimming league finals today, which was a lot of fun. small turnout this year, but oh well. Kellen did freakin' amazing, god i love that kid. My brother did really well too, i'm proud of him...it was good seeing jerry and all of those guys and even a couple berkeley kids.
shireen and danielle and I went to Ashley's play tonight which was sooo funny. Ashley did really well, hooray, her first speaking role. She didn't know i was coming, although stupid me put my name on the reservation list and saw it. grr. oh well. she didn't had no idea but then she and chrissy saw me in the audience. Ahhh, surprises. I felt special...it was good to surprise her. thennnnnn since certain people *ahem* weren't around (but really, what does it matter now?) we went to someone's house (someone from the cast) and hung out...good way to end the night.
on the agenda tomorrow...
coffee with sasha, lena's in the afternoon, home, HOPEFULLY seeing doug at some point in time, then its back to the airport and san diego for me until june 18th.
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[02 May 2006|10:02am] |
[mood|  relieved]
just got a phone call from alex. Finally, some form of communication to assure me that he's ok. he said it had only been a month, but it seemed like forever. but then we got disconnected, so i didn't get to ask him about his girlfriend. Oh well. I probably wouln't have had the courage to anyway. As much as I love hearing from him, i honestly just don't know what to say...i feel like i'm saying the same things over and over.... how are you, be safe, don't die, come home.
I want him to come home in august, not march.
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[25 Apr 2006|02:52pm] |
[mood|  amused]
so my knee isnt broken. and my broken i mean actually hurt. Apparently the knee cap rubs the cartilage and it gets irritated. Got some excersises to do. Oy. more excersises. which reminds me...must do physical therapy tonight. eh. Yeah, but then i had to get xrays just to make sure. Got to wear a hospital gown and everything. woot. except not. it was very...open. haha. at least i was wearing cute panties. :-)
Finished research log number three...JUST NOW. yay.
people are coming to visit memorial day weekend! yesssss. so excited. shireen anddanielle. Two of trisha's friends. probably patrick and linsday and maybe melia. yes. TJ weekends rock.
oh, and ACADEMY boys on friday! oh man i love trisha and her connections. I knew we kept her around for something....
so much reading, and im so behind. i should probably study. and email my COGN20 TA. im bad for ditching class on friday.
on another note, i hate parking at UCSD after 8:30 AM. the lot fills up WAY too quickly.
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[21 Apr 2006|09:24am] |
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Hey Jealousy-The Gin Blossoms |
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HPY%{(&%*W&$%{WHFGSDJKFH{)%*#$&W#$Q&#*($& <------------ my expectations for life. ....and even that is not fufilled.
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